I am so very hurt by the fact that the children are paying for their parents' actions in Islam.
I've been raised in a really toxic and abusive family and since that day back in Istanbul when I was informed that I died, I've been under attack by a really abusive attitude which is quite similar to one I received as a child and around my parents.
And in Mesnevi I've been informed that I was paying for my father's actions which were directed consistently at me occuring as physical, verbal, psychological abuse of almost all kinds.
This leads me to feel quite a bit of rage and makes me feel so worthless. Like I came this world to be tortured. I must say I don't think any of you could relate to be honest. You would be dead if you were in my shoes. On the other hand it makes me very dependable on Allah and whenever I can't feel his presence I tend to end up around ill intentioned people. Which is almost every woman and man living in Turkiye. Sadly I'm fully aware of the moral and intellectual infamy of the people living in this country. Yet I would like to add that those kind of disrespectful acts like burning holy Qur'an makes me think that it could be same everywhere.
I did my best to be a good example and bring the people of Turkiye together to achieve unity yet all my efforts turned out in vain. Now we have a filthy dog acting like a prophet and I had to leave the olive farm where I was awakening from a dream and having the blessing of Allah. I must say without that disgusting whore and her evil eyes which caused my body to almost collapse, I was in a loving condition, away from my torturing parents, and that Oğuzhan Uğur rascal. And I felt the spirit was within me, and sometimes Jesus.
At the moment I want to make peace with my childhood hometown Datça, heal and get back up again, and leave this country.
I also would like to inform you that I've seen so many examples of the righteousness of Qur'an with examples and am fully devoted to its teachings. I would like that warmness in the heart of Christians put there by God and The Word of Jesus for my people too, yet the idiocracy of the people living in my country does not allow them to see how much I did care about them. Despite being put into fire and the fact that when I should had been only concerned about myself, I died caring and doing my best for this country and all human kind with such selflessness. I've been told that I need to regain myself so I feel the need to do so.
I died 2 times Dear Reader.
It's time to put myself first and find my people to gain my spirit.
